UPDATES and Downdates

So, I'm an aunt again to a sweet little Texan, named Raegan Isabella Corry. I wish my sister and fam would hurry up and move back home. They've been gone forever and it's getting old!
My mom is on the upswing from her traumatic experience and I just pray that the Lord heals her completely.
I think I've finally found my calling.....I'm thinking of getting my masters in Special Ed Emotionally Disabled and move into Autism. Those kids have my heart. I've had much hands-on, literally, experience with these kids in the 23 days we've been at school and I just love them. It's been tough juggling the "regular" kids AND them, but all-in-all I've found my strengtths as a teacher. I've also found my weaknesses! I wake up each morning knowing that I will face a major challenge and I embrace the challenge. But I refuse to let my other students suffer. I can tell they are aching for my attention and affirming them through my actions b/c they, even the boys, are always fighting to sit by me and hug me, hold my hand, and read to me. I welcome it. I love it. But there's only so much of me. And then I get to come home to the kids I birthed. I get to the point where I feel.."when is it MY time?"..but then the Lord tugs at my heart strings and reminds me that He will sustain me and guide through each and every challenge. And I'm constantly reminded that IT IS NOT ABOUT ME! If only I had a saint's heart!! I get irritated at people who pass me and ask.."how's your runner?" and "how's your stabber?" and other crap like that. I'm sooo invested in these kids and it burns me when people make light of the heartache these kids go through. Crap that we would never want in our worst nightmares. So I'm venting and I hope it doesn't bite me. But this is the first year I have felt purpose and I want so badly to serve and succeed in my purpose.
The flip side is I don't want my other relationships to fall short of what they deserve. And so...I juggle. We all do in whatever it is we do. I'm just so happy that I have God on my side, beacuse honestly, I would have given up the first breakdown.
OK-- I have nothing more to say...I'm looking forward to seeing my besties this weekend and just spending time hearing about other people's lives!