You know how when you lay awake at night and think about all the different ways you want to and need to change aspects of your life? When you're in your comfy bed and being all motivated to begin a new way of life (or at least a new way of living certain areas of your life)? Well, I've had many a night like that. In fact, very recently....with my devotions, eating right, exercising...
And then in the light of day it's like you never even had that wonderful motivating, "I'm gonna do this" moment the night before. This would be the reason why I still weigh what I do and why my brain is on Repeat for most of the day.
In my bible study, Beth Moore challenges us to choose something to give up for 12 weeks. She specifically cited Daniels' faith to God and his outstanding refusal to conform to the ways of Babylon and eat the rich foods he knew were against the teachings of the Lord. But my group agreed that this is an act of obedience to God and that if it is to be meaningful to us, we should practice self-control and give up something that means something to us individually. SOOOO...been prayin' on this one. OK, so if I'm honest, if I've been buying my time before I have to refuse something I love! BUT...there are many things I should give up, but the thing that has been on my heart the most are eating better and exercising. Ha! I know some of you just chuckled b/c how many times have I said this?????? (Cara, just go with it) This time, instead of praying for God to make me skinny or "healthy", I've changed it to "SUSTAIN ME WHILE I DO THE WORK". I've been in this unhealthy, crappy feeling, stressed out, negative mode for far too long and all arrows point to Get Off Your Butt and feel better!
So, this morning I awake with a newness and a goal. I also have to remind myself that I will not see results immediately, but I am hoping to become obsessive about eating good and exercising to replace my obsession with heart and death!
SO....I will be using this here blog as my journal/diary/record-keeper.
Should be interesting. I figure this will be way more shameful if I write tomorrow: "Just Kidding...remaining lazy cuz I want to"
Wish me luck and say a prayer if you want to. Truly, I want the sculpted arms, but I want to be mentally, spiritually, and physically healthy even more!
Friday, June 13, 2008
In the Light of Day...
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3 comments:
my moments of inspiration & motivation come in spurts too. i have great intentions but am innately lazy.
You know, i feel you on wanting to be healthy & fit, but personally, i think you look pretty damn good! I mean, look at you in that bathing suit! Your boobs look amazing.
-Robin
I hear dat, I do. Going to the beach this week with in-laws and all their people for a wedding - bunches of skinny barely-post-adolescents there - I will be TOTALLY motivated by that.
Until I'm not.
See you soon and I'll ride your case if you'll ride mine.
Kerri- you can do this!! You have to believe that first. Don't take on a mountian at first just a little mole hill and I know as time goes on you'll see how easy it is!!! How did you know I would be the one chukling- I have told you many times that you are more than able to do this you just din't want to listen. i love you!!!
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