Argh and Ugh!

I'm so annoyed right now. I can't even tell you at what, really, I just am and I hate feeling like this. I haven't had much of a bad day or anything. Gaines had some checkups today and t hose went fine. I mean, he has an aversion to all doctors, but the reports aren't bad. But yes, ok let's start there. First of all his apt with the ENT was ridiculous. Literally, I keep Gaines from tearing up the room (or try to) for the doc to come in, look at his ears, and throat and say, looks good. Then I have a fight with the receptionist over a bill, pay my $30 and leave. Go grocery shopping...AGAIN..., pick Gralynn up from Hi-Stepper Dance Camp and come home to nap. Then he has an 18 mos check up with pediatrician. I hate going b/c it's so weird. He always has some remark about how hard I am to read. Why does it matter? And I'm very easy to read, right? I was told that I missed Gaines' 15 mos appt, so they had to combine all three shots today. I wasn't aware he had a 15 mos. check up....guess I suck as a mom. Then I ask doc to check out his left eye b/c it's kind of wandering and it looks perfect ..today. I insist, b/c he does have it, just like his Papa and I want to know my options. Doc says he'll send us to the Opthamologist, blahblahblah. Ok--so then I lose my keys only to find them in my very cute new big bag after reentering the office and showing everyone just how scatter-brained I am. I run into a couple who are "special" clients of the office and that just bugs me. THEIR kids pictures are plastered all over the place. Stupid, I know. OK--- so then I just feel like a single mom so much of the time, but I know that Greg is working very hard and it is paying off. I just want the big cake and eat it too. Which brings me to my next thing....I CANNOT stop eating!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And no, not pregnant, just have a food addiction. THEN I get an email from my pricipal asking me to stay out of my room b/c the flors are being waxed. Duh, I knew that. I went a month ago with permission, but apparently the custodians told him I had a file cabinet on the tile floors today, so his subject headline was "Your visit today"....seriously? I've been to my classroom twice. Its a friggin wreck and I have soooooooo much to do and no time to do it. School starts in a month and I just cannot see a break in the future. I hate asking people to watch my kids. Nobody seems to understand this need I have to work, like teachers can literally just leave for the summer and only return the day they have to and be ready. It's impossible! I want a nanny and then feel guilty that I need this time away from my kids. I know myself....if I don't do it when I need to it will never get done and then I will not start off the year ina new grade level the way I need to and then I 'll never catch up and then my year will be a disaster and then I will not become a great teacher like I want and then all the fight will be for nothing b/c i will not be able to put my theorires to work successfully! AND...I have a gazillion house projects, but mostly, I just want to chill.

I suppose I was able to wrap my brain around my frustratons afterall. Thanks for reading. I feel better, but you probably feel like I'm a crackhead!