Talk About a Funk!!

For the past several weeks, well the whole month of March really, I have felt like crap, looked like crap, eaten crappy, and acted crappy! Last night I had a weird dream about being out somewhere and not seeing Gralynn and Gaines for a long time. It scared me so that as I got in my car this morning early to go to work since Greg was taking them to school today, and I turned my car around just so I could peek in on Gaines and whisper I love you, hug Gralynn again in fear that something awful was going to happen today! I thought I was literally going to have a nervouse breakdown when I got back in my car to head to school.
March has actually never been a good month for me. It's the month my PaPa died, the year I was in my first house fire, the month I did NOT get pregnant and had myself convinced I was barren (turns out I got pregnant with Gralynn the very next month :0)), and I tend to have my worst panic episodes during the month of March.
HOWEVER, the good news is March 2009 is a month I have consistently spent time with the Lord learning and praying His word. SO, my plan: to get over it. As of right now, I am deciding to clean the house, see the silver lining, and enjoy my family more.